Crybabystill- September 10, 2009

-(JoAnn) "CRYBABYSTILL"- Invited Guest Blogger SEPTEMBER 11, 2009 1. Dreams: Sailor Suit/Lecherous Old Man/Invisable Glove/Fear/Keys/Unlocked Door/ 2. Childhood Memory/Being Admired/Libido.

I saw a child at least someone small in a foreign type sailor suit, except the waist and shirt were like those in old-fashioned albums. His sailor hat was set at a jaunty angle and forward on his forehead (somewhat like Popeye in the old cartoons when he was about to correct some injustice to his love, Olive Oil.) Everything was in navy blue. =maybe depicted me as a child, old fashioned (or inhibited), foreign and boyish. The navy blue might signify aspects of water - or represent 'blue' feelings. The sailor hat also blue = an depressed thing head/mind related. You will note I am trying clarify what I dreamed as a write it down and I worry that the effort may actually serve to hide the real meaning from you and me. The same night: I dreamed W. wanted me to go to bed with him -I really didn't want to and finally was afraid Jack would find out and think I was having intercourse with other men. In the morning I try to analyze these dreams as having something in common: W., I equate Pluto who was very crude in trying to be intimate with Olive Oil. Jack I think would look the role of a handsome healthy sailor, if he was in a navy uniform. (I was told by my aunt that my father was breath takingly hansom, in his marine uniform, when courting my mother, but he had little interest in maintaining a family. Also many of my past dreams have police, soldiers, nurses, doctors, ambulance drivers, all uniformed people, also 1920-30 style dressed gangsters.) I think I remember going with my mother to a Macy's store in New York, at about age 6, I think (it's vague) in the store was a display of various sailor and soldier clothing items for kids. Maybe being there had something to do with my father's ship being in port at that time. The next night I dreamed: I was outside two dark houses- mine was more dilapidated than the other – it was in shadow, mine was sort of brown, The man next door Mr. W. I didn’t like-- an yet he kept wanting to come to me. When I awoke I was shouting at the top of my lungs (in my dream) ‘Don’t come near me John –Don’t’ [ John resembles a younger Mr. W] I moved to the opposite side of my house away from this man wondering if I could get in the front door of my house and lock the door and keep him out. I become aware I had dropped my door key on the way and feared going back for it. Also I seemed not able to move, as something I could not see was holding me there. What was holding me there was much like an invisible glove. When I awoke I had a feeling someone was trying to get into my house I was very apprehensive. I just dismissed it as not being real as I often do with bad dreams. Bad dreams being an old experienced with me. But when I examined my door I found it was unlocked and one window also open. I closed it and felt better afterwards. [Strangely, the door being unlocked part is not clear if this was in the dream or real event.] The man in my dream may have been Mr. F. (an actual older neighbor, whom I often see, when I walk around to the front of my house to get the mail --which might represent some desired or feared message. Somehow I associate a pleasant event at work with these dreams. It was that, Mr. G, my work scheduler, stopped by my section and while there, complimented me on my dress saying how well it showed my figure off. I told him I was planning to buy a jacket which would make my dress more business like. He said he couldn’t wait to see it. Can so little of a friendly exchange shake up so much of my sleep world? To the invisable glove I associate that at some ceremonial things, the Marine dress uniform included gloves. Am I wishing to be a little Sailor-Marine? What has this do with my present reality??

I would like your comments and analysis of my dreams' Just put 'Sailor Suit' in the subject fateanalysisguy@gmail.com